It's my party...I'll cry if I want to

Okay, there is no party. And I won't cry. Still can't bring myself to do that just yet. You know, I think crying is the most intimate of things I could share with a friend. I feel so weak and helpless when I cry that I could only share that with those VERY close to me. I just don't let myself cry otherwise...can't remember the last time I cried with someone... or in front of someone... but that's okay, such is life.