There is a big hole in my being. I can't fill it. I can't ignore it.
There is a smaller gap in my existence. It can be filled. It has to be ignored.
Void. Cold. Bare.
Scared. Alone. Weak.
Fake. Empty. Blank.
Stronger than you think; Weaker than I believe.
Deperate. Sad. Open.
"I'm fine, alhamdulillah."
It is scary to be so frank. It is good to have a venue to be so real. It is unbelievably relieving to just write the words though I can never say them aloud. This is only one way I exist, this blog. This is the way that I am able to exist in real life. Here I don't have to pretend. Here I don't have to be anything. Here I just am. Though this is not the complete ME.
3 comments:
Alhamdullah you found your way to vent. for some it's not that easy
Dude I so know what you mean.
thats amazing, but sometime no word spoken or written can be explained, i love this blog mashllah its great
take care
xx
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