Actually...

I can't let that be the last thing I let myself write. I am not like that. As a matter of fact, I almost want to delete it all. I can't. I also won't let myself be that. I won't be the person to delete it as if it never happened. It did. It was. Now we are what we are. Each individual grows. But "With every hardship is ease," as Allah promises. "Verily with every hardship is ease." Oh Allah I pray to you to show me what is good in this trial and make the ease come soon for my family.

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Chicago was fun, alhamdulillah. I was too busy to enjoy the actual city, but to see my friends again made it worth it, insha'Allah.

The highlight: flying. SubhanAllah, it was so easy. This was the first time I've flown alone and only the second time I've flown in my life. It was so easy, I'm already planning to take another trip (okay, so I don't know when or where, I just know I've gotta get out of this town that makes me so strong therefore so weak). To see the sky, the sunrise, the clouds; how could anyone deny an existence greater than ourselves? SubhanAllah. It's so cliche, but I enjoyed watching the world grow smaller and my dependence on Allah grow greater.

I made dua while in the plane, for the dua of the traveler is accepted insha'Allah. I prayed for everything I could think of. I wrote it all down. It only seems real when I write it down. May Allah accept my prayers and bless my family. Oh Allah guide us.

just think of the clouds....just think of the clouds....just think of the clouds....