Ramblings in the night

And what, exactly, would you have me say?

I was and am sometimes stupid?
I still think about the past from time to time and realize those faulty moves and useless hints?
That I still fight the very thought of his grabbing my hand when least expected?
That as much as I try, the back of my mind still houses that dumb hope girls learn to rely on?

I am sorry it is this way.

I am trying to remove the feeling.

But there is only so much a girl can do when moving to Alaska isn't really an option.

It's all good in the end though, right?

Alhamdulillah.