Trying to figure out my place
somewhere between this new,
unfamiliar place between the cracks
and the old world with its
responsibility and values
is the hardest thing to
undertake.

I didn't ask for this role,
the role of keeper of
tradition and key
to future hope,
I was only
the first
born.

Unsuccessful in finding the balance.
Unhappy in the current groove.
Unbelieving of the last few words.

Waiting for the response, or lack thereof.
Waiting for a miracle or disaster.
Waiting for an answer from above.