So I get on the internet to play scrabble. Is there anything wrong with that?

Didn't think so.

upcoming quarter of a century

For my birthday I have decided what I'm going to do for myself. I would like to get my hair done, but that's so....NORMAL. No, what I can't wait to do is even better.

I'm getting my nose and belly button pierced! WOOHOO! I've been wanting the nose piercing for a while, but the belly button thing is rather new for me. As a matter of fact, when I saw one of my friend's stretch marks around the piercing after she got pregnant (of course she removed the ring, but the holes are still there), I nearly puked and changed my mind. Instead, I don't care. Besides no one will see it but me and I'll be happy that I went through with it. Well, maybe. I still need to see how much it costs. I'm not keen on spending lots of money, especially for someone to poke a hole in me.

When I told my friends what I wanted to do, they only ask, "What's your dad gonna say?" My response is always that my dad won't even see the belly button ring! They always roll their eyes at me and ask what my dad's stance on the nose ring is. Truthfully, I don't think my dad will really care all that much. I'm getting a small stud to put in that will be barely noticeable, just utterly adorable. Besides, if I don't like it, I can always just take it out. My loving friends also remind me that I'm still single and the nose ring just might "give the wrong impression." But whatever. I can always just take it out on the first meeting, right? :)

I still have a couple of weeks to decide what to actually do, but I'm pretty sure I'll get my piercings. I'm so excited! Besides, if it's too expensive, maybe I should just buy myself an ipod. It's about time I got myself one. :)

ouch

my tooth hurts
it is nearly four in the morning and my tooth really hurts
i cannot sleep on my right side
i cannot sleep on my left side
i cannot sleep on my back
i simply cannot sleep
i swallowed a few tylenol, though i hate medicine
i am still in pain an hour later
it is because i thought to myself,
"i have a high tolerance for pain
i can handle it
see i have handled it before
the other day i put my pain out
of mind and out it went
i have high tolerance for pain
i don't need a dentist"

well i do
and they need to pull my freakin' teeth
so i can go on with my life

okay
let's be rational...
my tooth hurts
and it is four in the morning
rationality was dropped off in dream world

it is four in the morning and my freaking tooth hurts
*it'll be better in the morning insha'Allah*
-dust off the fairy glitter and go to sleep-

Pissed off

I've been angry with my brother for some time now. When he said, "All you ever say is 'That's a stupid idea,'" I almost smacked him. Are you freakin' kidding me? Yeah, that idea you had of doing things without consulting the parents was stupid. Sorry, I couldn't lie. But are you seriously going to pretend like: a) you invite me along very often. b) I don't try my best to be 'normal' when chaperoning the two of you immature children. c) I didn't try to help you out by inviting you along to do things in a group or coming up with ways to 'get to know each other.'

I'm only mad right now because of other things. I can't believe he's such a pushover and easily swayed. I feel a bit sad for him and I guess I feel sad for me. We are losing him. It's not like he'll be gone, but it's clear he's not here. Yeah, it sucks.

I guess I'm just mad right now and only for the right now. I will get over it. It will be forgotten years down the road, insha'Allah. But for the right now, I don't want to just let it go but I don't want to make a big deal out if it either. I know that I'll have to talk to him about it again and again, but it'll be worth it in the end.

When I stop being mad at him, maybe I could talk to him again.

Not tonight though. He left before I came back. Not seconds after he walked out, he forgot our plans. Then, after texting, he cancelled them altogether. Not that I was really fooled into thinking we'd do something together again. No, I'm not that naive.

Maybe I won't stop being mad for being left.

So when I have the power of my full reason once more, I will talk to him.

(Salah, just in case he talks to you more than me-which is likely-, don't mention this please.)

Just read something...made me laugh....HARD!

I can't believe it. It made me happy, not even a tad bit sad! I was glad.

It's still funny though. Jeez! I wish I could say what.

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Ohmigosh...meeting new people and 'chatting' with them online is not only boring, it's gay! BLAH! Can I just say "I'm not interested!" and make them leave me alone? Sheesh! Do you really think I want to hear about the last girl you 'talked' with? Men...*shaking head*