Silence

Some things you just can't say out loud.

"My marriage is failing," only costs you denial as your world falls apart.
"Your commitment is dying," costs you the safety of false security.
"I'm leaving," will cost you the trip as you reconsider the life.

Sometimes you just can't say things out loud.

"Forgive me...I'm sorry," will cost you face.
"I love you," seems too weak to express it as you lose your constancy.

Sometimes you just don't say things out loud

for fear of ruining it
for fear of losing it
for fear of feeling it
for fear of recognizing it
for fear of hurting others
for fear of understanding it
for fear of fear

Because sometimes it's easier to NOT say it out loud!

And the beat keeps running...

Things I've done:

• Went to a teacher workshop on reading...but have yet to successfully incorporate all of the material just yet.
• Went to an Islamic concert...and almost fell asleep as I drove home late a night.
• Lost more than 5 pounds...all because I've given up Diet Coke (I can't believe I made the concious decision to do so) and exercise nearly everyday.

Things I wish to do:

• Run 10 laps in the gym without stopping to catch my breath after every 2 laps.
• Keep up my exercise routine...it makes me feel good.
• Learn more everyday...

I just turned 23 the other day...of course you don't feel different overnight, but I know I'm older. I expect to grow and learn differently than before. I've also come the realization that I am no long in the 'youth' category. That's just weird. But then again, I'm fine with that now that I feel like more of a leader than just a follower. I've also thought about my mother (Allah yarhamha-May Allah have mercy upon her). She died at only 39...I'm more than halfway there...but then again I could die younger...Just a fleeting thought that flutters through my mind at random moments...

Alhamdulillah for my family, all my friends everywhere, my mind, my life. Alhamdulillah for everything.

Alhamdulillah

I am so drained...I enjoy traveling but it takes so much outta ya! :) Alhamdulillah I get to travel though...and alhamdulillah this time it was free :)

Things I learned on Spring Break

Driving away can be sad...
A look, a glance can display my anger...
Crying is my weakness (a weakness I am too weak to allow)...
If you can't control it, why get angry?
Some people are just plain LAZY!!!
Boys take longer getting ready than girls...
The Wudu room in Richardson is the BEST wudu room I have ever been in (I'm sure I'll devote an entire post to this soon)...
Some Muslims are rude...
Some Muslims are the nicest people you could ever wish to meet (alhamdulillah I met them)...
Traffic in Dallas is a nightmare...
When traveling with 16 people (13 high school seniors in particular) a normal 9 hour drive takes at least 15 and every 10 minute stop takes at least 1 hour...
When traveling with 16 people there is never a dull moment, alhamdulillah...

Even your voice can be dangerous...

They call me....

The Reading Bandit...



And



The Cat in the Hat!!!


Boy do we have fun!